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I find myself in an odd position of late. I finally got a job two weeks ago, and the first in about a year and a half. It's a decent job, albeit a temporary one. I'm not really sure what to think of it. I work for a start-up business of two guys working out of an office in one of their homes. It's legit business, they're nice and all, and it pays well, but I dunno. It's generally a 9 to 5ish thing, and I'm good at it, but I'm starting to think that I don't really want to be doing this much longer. It's a little bit of everything, which is a nice change now and then, but is also a bit nerve-wracking for one such as I, who (whom?) thrives on specific routine. Thus far, I've done data entry, database manipulation, created powerpoints, created a 20+ page manual for their product, updated some of their web page, photoshopped many a picture, made and mailed postcards, and a few other odds and ends. I have to say, working in photoshop is always a lot of fun, kind of like getting payed to play. I find it terribly amusing that I got all of my photoshop skills through making user icons for the web. Apparently just knowing how to use it is considered a skill, and I've been advised to put it on my resume. Who knew. But as interesting as a lot of it has been, I don't know if I really could handle it as a career. I know I've been helping these guys a lot, but I'm just not finding it fulfilling. Not to mention that the way the computer desk is really screws with my posture and various muscles.
Add to this that I seem incapable of actually getting to bed at a reasonable hour, and things are not super for me. I feel like I've been just drifting through the past two weeks in a haze of blah. Mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually, and everything else feels like, well, gray. I really don't know what to do about it, but I definitely could not keep doing what I'm doing without something needing to give. Blah and meh are not good enough, and I won't stand for them. Not that I need things to be perfect, but I most assuredly need to be somewhere that makes me feel like I'm doing something of value. I don't know why I don't feel like that now, but it is what it is.
Add to this that I seem incapable of actually getting to bed at a reasonable hour, and things are not super for me. I feel like I've been just drifting through the past two weeks in a haze of blah. Mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually, and everything else feels like, well, gray. I really don't know what to do about it, but I definitely could not keep doing what I'm doing without something needing to give. Blah and meh are not good enough, and I won't stand for them. Not that I need things to be perfect, but I most assuredly need to be somewhere that makes me feel like I'm doing something of value. I don't know why I don't feel like that now, but it is what it is.