that sounds like a really painful dream. :[ and i totally hear you, with it being difficult to talk to people about your frustrations. i was in a similar place when mj left us; i believed vehemently that God wanted me to honor my vows and so i did, but it was miserable and painful and i didn't want to be with him so i was always terrified of him coming home. and i had to do the same thing you do -- remind myself that what God has for me is better than anything i could come up with, so i need to hang in there. and now i'm so very, very glad that i did. it was hard, because people were always trying to tell me i was free, i was divorced, blah blah blah, and i was like no, i'm pretty sure God wants me to honor my vows.
so yeah, i know how lonely that feels, and also how painful and hard. but i can tell you from my own experience that God DOES honor obedience and it IS worth it. :)
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Date: 2016-11-09 10:38 pm (UTC)From:so yeah, i know how lonely that feels, and also how painful and hard. but i can tell you from my own experience that God DOES honor obedience and it IS worth it. :)