Feb. 11th, 2008
I had the most wonderful day yesterday. It was like the perfect combination of things, really. Well, honestly it was God, but he combined things really well. Everything just lined up. I think the biggest noticeable difference was that my brain was functioning well; meaning, I could focus on the things I wanted to focus on, and my mind wasn't constantly dragging my thoughts in every which way. I often find my mind elsewhere, but yesterday it was just calm and quiet. It was nice. Added to that, people kept talking to me who normally pretty much ignore me. They're not normally mean or anything, I just don't rate conversation. Yet yesterday I did, and not just once, but with several such people. The coup de grĂ¢ce was the complete lack of anxiety. I am very often anxious. Usually it is a low level hum of anxiety, with the occasional spike of massive, crippling, irrational fear, but yesterday, rien. There were just so many moments lining up perfectly yesterday that I can do naught but be exceedingly happy and grateful about it. Really, it was one of those days that was so good that you get excited just to have had it. One of those, "that was so awesome!" moments.