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Fuzzy wuzzy was a bear.
Apr. 22nd, 2008 10:58 pmHe had no hair, you know.
Anyway, I was going through my high school year book looking for someone, and it hit me. I was kind of looking forward, in however many years' time, to coming back to my high school reunion to see how everybody turned out, but now I'm not so sure. It hit me that high school is the time when everyone gets to see you at your most awkward. I was the overweight kid who always came last in gym. I was more or less recognized as smart, but I didn't really ever spend time with anyone, or have close friends. Oh sure, I've lost a lot of the weight and have an inhaler now, so I can exert myself without tasting copper, but I dunno. Not only was I (still am, alas) terribly awkward, but how many people will even know who the hell I am?
Every time I leaf through yearbooks, I'm always reminded of how little I really did. I never once had any extra-curriculars. I came to school, went to class, ate alone at lunch (not by choice, but whatever), and was usually one of the first out the door at the end of the day. The second school was over, I was on my way home. I had no close friends in school. I had one really good friend, but he went to boarding school on the other side of the country, so I barely ever got to see him. I could socialize well enough in class, but I never once did anything with people outside of class or after school. I never went to a single game, school dance, or anything else, save for the mandatory pep rallies. I'm not really sure I'll ever want to go back to people who, if they remember me at all, remember only what I was. Thankfully I don't have to decide right this moment, but still...
Anyway, I was going through my high school year book looking for someone, and it hit me. I was kind of looking forward, in however many years' time, to coming back to my high school reunion to see how everybody turned out, but now I'm not so sure. It hit me that high school is the time when everyone gets to see you at your most awkward. I was the overweight kid who always came last in gym. I was more or less recognized as smart, but I didn't really ever spend time with anyone, or have close friends. Oh sure, I've lost a lot of the weight and have an inhaler now, so I can exert myself without tasting copper, but I dunno. Not only was I (still am, alas) terribly awkward, but how many people will even know who the hell I am?
Every time I leaf through yearbooks, I'm always reminded of how little I really did. I never once had any extra-curriculars. I came to school, went to class, ate alone at lunch (not by choice, but whatever), and was usually one of the first out the door at the end of the day. The second school was over, I was on my way home. I had no close friends in school. I had one really good friend, but he went to boarding school on the other side of the country, so I barely ever got to see him. I could socialize well enough in class, but I never once did anything with people outside of class or after school. I never went to a single game, school dance, or anything else, save for the mandatory pep rallies. I'm not really sure I'll ever want to go back to people who, if they remember me at all, remember only what I was. Thankfully I don't have to decide right this moment, but still...
