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Wow, ghost town lately much?
Sep. 5th, 2017 03:56 amI'm kind of all over the place of late. Work has something to do with that: our workload of late has been increasingly sporadic. One week I'm making plenty of hours, the next we've got nothing and I'm suddenly short for rent. Thank God that my folks have been able to help me out as much as they have. Still, I really need to find a more stable job. Of course, finding any sort of job in this town is difficult enough as it is, plus my job is juuust essential enough to really inconvenience my much-liked coworkers should I leave. Honestly, the three of us who work in the back are partly all still working there because none of us wants to be the one to pull the pin and take down our company branch. The other two show increasing signs of frustration and burnout. Even though I do a bit less than they, I vent just enough to keep them from blowing up completely.
But I have far fewer hours and make several dollars less an hour than they, so something needs to give.
I've been listening to Linkin Park this evening; tinged with a bit of melancholy, naturally. It's so bizarre to me that Chester the singer is gone. I can definitively say that he is the first ever celebrity death to have any real impact on my emotional state. I've never really ever stopped listening to them. I've listened to Hybrid Theory and Meteora so many times, as I had those albums, and the disparate other tracks on youtube nearly as much. I don't listen to them all the time, but they've always been ready at hand, and with ever new and great songs at that. They've been the only band that I can think of that, with the exception of one or two songs, I've enjoyed every single album they've put out. All the more impressive for all the various changes they've made in style.
And now...no more. I know the dude wasn't single-handedly responsible for their music, but he was certainly a substantial part of it. That they were still making great stuff and trying new things is probably what makes me feel so off kilter. One of the band members of Remy Zero died a while back, but they'd been disbanded for a while, so it was sad but not the same kind of loss. Linkin Park has proven to be neither a flash in the pan nor stuck doing the same album over and over forever. It's that loss of potential, future music that we will now never get to experience that hits the hardest, I think. Also, I feel super bad for his family. Suicide is always brutal on those left behind.
Welp, I've rambled on long enough for now, I think.
But I have far fewer hours and make several dollars less an hour than they, so something needs to give.
I've been listening to Linkin Park this evening; tinged with a bit of melancholy, naturally. It's so bizarre to me that Chester the singer is gone. I can definitively say that he is the first ever celebrity death to have any real impact on my emotional state. I've never really ever stopped listening to them. I've listened to Hybrid Theory and Meteora so many times, as I had those albums, and the disparate other tracks on youtube nearly as much. I don't listen to them all the time, but they've always been ready at hand, and with ever new and great songs at that. They've been the only band that I can think of that, with the exception of one or two songs, I've enjoyed every single album they've put out. All the more impressive for all the various changes they've made in style.
And now...no more. I know the dude wasn't single-handedly responsible for their music, but he was certainly a substantial part of it. That they were still making great stuff and trying new things is probably what makes me feel so off kilter. One of the band members of Remy Zero died a while back, but they'd been disbanded for a while, so it was sad but not the same kind of loss. Linkin Park has proven to be neither a flash in the pan nor stuck doing the same album over and over forever. It's that loss of potential, future music that we will now never get to experience that hits the hardest, I think. Also, I feel super bad for his family. Suicide is always brutal on those left behind.
Welp, I've rambled on long enough for now, I think.
