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Personality
Aug. 19th, 2019 02:58 amI hung out with a bunch of girls after church this evening. All the usual guys were out, to my fortune. Sort of. Girls tend to talk over you if you don't put yourself out there well enough. At least, these ones do. I've the feeling I'd be more included if I were better friends with them. Regardless, it was very interesting hearing them speak, as the topics almost all included enneagram numbers. Having only vaguely heard of enneagram, it was very bizarre. They're all like, "I'm a 2, but I can build up to 8 energy. And he's a 3 wing 4 with a..." The shorthand for explaining to others one's personality or how others interact was interesting and all, but I was struck by how similar it was listening to non-christians all talking and bringing star signs into the mix.
I hold zero regard for the utter retarded nature of star signs and horoscopes, so it was mildly unnerving to experience the exact same behavior among all these Christian girls. To be fair, I do appreciate the shorthand nature of it, to be able to quickly convey complex ideas simply. However, I did go and look into it all after; took a test and boned up on the descriptions and all that. What I discovered is how completely not helpful it is for me. Given the right situation, anyone can fit into any of the categories. I could very easily see myself fitting in all but one of the categories, and my results were equally across the board. I had two of the exact same amount, in completely unrelated areas, and then most the others were fairly close together too. One has to basically be a one dimensional character to really have the enneagram be of much use.
Honestly, I find the Meyers-Briggs type of characterization to be much more accurate, though even in that I am almost exactly balanced in one of my categories (S/N for those wondering). I wonder at times if it isn't because I've been tempered in my life in such ways as to be very unique, and even I'm not certain how I truly am in some situations. Do you know how odd it is to be both mathematically minded and artistically creative at the same time? To feel some emotions deeply, yet at times to be completely unfazed by the craziest of situations? The one time I tried to join eharmony, I was in the 20% of people who are not classifiable, according to the rejection they sent me after filling out all their questionnaires. Not a great feeling, being too unique for them to even try to connect me with other people.
I've long realized how unique my path through life has been. I am a subset of a subset, a Christian nerd. I love order and rules, but also spontaneous creativity and playfulness. I want orderly chaos.
I hold zero regard for the utter retarded nature of star signs and horoscopes, so it was mildly unnerving to experience the exact same behavior among all these Christian girls. To be fair, I do appreciate the shorthand nature of it, to be able to quickly convey complex ideas simply. However, I did go and look into it all after; took a test and boned up on the descriptions and all that. What I discovered is how completely not helpful it is for me. Given the right situation, anyone can fit into any of the categories. I could very easily see myself fitting in all but one of the categories, and my results were equally across the board. I had two of the exact same amount, in completely unrelated areas, and then most the others were fairly close together too. One has to basically be a one dimensional character to really have the enneagram be of much use.
Honestly, I find the Meyers-Briggs type of characterization to be much more accurate, though even in that I am almost exactly balanced in one of my categories (S/N for those wondering). I wonder at times if it isn't because I've been tempered in my life in such ways as to be very unique, and even I'm not certain how I truly am in some situations. Do you know how odd it is to be both mathematically minded and artistically creative at the same time? To feel some emotions deeply, yet at times to be completely unfazed by the craziest of situations? The one time I tried to join eharmony, I was in the 20% of people who are not classifiable, according to the rejection they sent me after filling out all their questionnaires. Not a great feeling, being too unique for them to even try to connect me with other people.
I've long realized how unique my path through life has been. I am a subset of a subset, a Christian nerd. I love order and rules, but also spontaneous creativity and playfulness. I want orderly chaos.
