
Not to be confused with kinky thoughts. I'm not the kind of person to write such things down, especially where anyone else could read them...
But I digress. Quite frequently too. Such is the nature of thought. Anyhoo, I just read a chapter from G.K. Chesterton's book on Orthodoxy, and the last paragraph really got me to thinking. Except I just forgot what it was and now have to go back and reread it.
Ah, now I remember. Chesterton's last paragraph of his chapter on optimism and pessimism is on the nature of proper optimism. That is to say, he says that when people try to get one to be optimistic anymore, it is by saying that we are a part of this world, that everything is natural. And yet, still great depression and pessimism continues. What Chesterton says of true optimism, that of christian optimism, is in the knowledge that we are, in fact, "monstrosities", as he puts it. Or as Switchfoot says in one particular song, "I don't belong here." The true joy to be found, is in the knowledge that things are, in fact, not natural at all, that things are not as they should be, and that we do not belong here as things stand.
There is a definite relief in the knowledge that the feeling of things being not quite right, or of feeling not a part of things, like the outsider in the game of life, that all these are, in truth, natural. That life is not as it should be, and that the feeling of being left out, or not right, or a simple lack, is exactly how it really is. When one is told that we are simply not fitting in to the natural order of things, despair is the result, knowing that one can hardly ever accomplish this fitting in with what seems off or different. But there is a freedom in knowing that no, things do not indeed fit as we feel they ought.
I find this quite interesting to think on.