Various thoughts.

Dagnabit, I've forgotten at least half of the things I was just about to write about. How very annoying. It was all deep and stuff too. Deep, I tell you.

There's not too terribly much going on in my life at the moment, though a slight tinge of panic seems to pervade my day to day thoughts. There remains about 4ish weeks left of school, and I have like three different things to research in that time. I have a western civ research paper due next friday. I haven't even started at looking in my sources I have. I had about 5 hours set aside yesterday in order to do so, and maybe even start writing a little of it, but I got distracted by my brother's new xbox and spent all of yesterday watching him play and playing myself. Between Halo 2, the new Timesplitters, and Burnout 3, I got jack done in the area of homework. It sure was fun though. I really don't get enough video gaming in. It's a release I really don't get enough of during the school year. As for the other things, well, I haven't started on those either, but I have a tad bit longer with those. Still, looming doom over my head.

I had a Lincoln moment today right before Networking started. I don't mean I was shot while on a balcony, though that would probably be annoying too. It comes from what a kid in my bible study said last week. There was a short pause in the conversation, and he suddenly blurted out Lincoln. He told us that a girl once told him to think of Abraham Lincoln whenever there's a pause in conversation, and now it happens to him every single time he has a lull. It's weird, but it's really quite infectious. In fact, simply by reading this, some of you may have picked it up, for which you shall hereafter curse my name for doing so, as no doubt some of us from the bible study have been doing. I also told the people in my CS class when I blurted out Lincoln during the pause earlier today, so we'll see any of them try to shiv me on friday.

Also, many happy returns to maveness. What exactly is being returned I have no clue of, and probably don't want to know, but I'm sure it'll be helpful to somebody.

Church thoughts.

I've been getting a bit...annoyed, I guess, lately, at the way people have been discussing church. The way people talk, the sign of being a good christian is to go to church, and not going to a church means something is wrong. This is crap. Not to say we shouldn't go to church, but the problem I see is that the modern day church, with a few exceptions, is not what it was in the beginning, and doesn't exactly fulfil what the church of the bible is all about. As Keith Green once said, "Going to church doesn't make you a christian any more than going to McDonalds makes you a hamburger."

The first problem I have is that the churches we go to don't have all that much fellowship, and that's really the whole point of gathering christians together. We are to uplift each other, and strengthen one another in the faith. Going and hearing a sermon once or twice a week isn't really all that hepful in us strengthening one another or helping to love God more. Sure, there may be an important lesson to learn, but I think a lot of the problem anymore is that church is about the lesson. Don't get me wrong, that's one of the reasons I have been going to my church the last few months now, is because I'm truly learning more about the Bible every week. But I get more fellowship during my bible studies. We connect more with each other, and in my guy's group, we actually help each other deal with important things. It's a band of brothers, and that's what it should be.

I've lost a good number of thoughts, so I can't remember where I was headed, which is annoying, because my point is incomplete and easily argued without everything else to help quantify my thoughts. Grumble grumble.

I need a vent buddy.

I sure hope that didn't sound dirty. I rather mean it. I need a friend to vent to, and I simply cannot do so online or in a journal, be it on or offline. That, or I need to just slam my head against the wall uenough times until all my brain has been emptied out. Just as long as I can get all this crap out. I think that's the way I mentally dump stuff, is to talk to people. Like I use people as pensieves or something. All my thoughts just bounce around in my brain till I don't know what's what, but as long as I can get them out and know that someone else has at least heard it all, I can just forget about it or let it go. Maybe I'll go try that head vs. wall thing.