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Oct. 19th, 2010 03:41 amDid you know that you can have withdrawals from going off of anti-depressants? That's a fun little fact I rediscovered this weekend. I was going 3-5 days each step down of mine, as per my doc's instructions, and except for the occasional crying jags, I was doing fine. From 150mg to 75mg a day? No problem. 75 to 37.5mg? No problem. From 37.5 to nothing? Wanted to die. Yay. Not only did going off cause some really unpleasant withdrawals, they actually got worse the second day in some ways.
The symptoms are really hard to describe too, as I've never had that specific combination before, ever, save for one other time when I couldn't get the same said meds for a few days. It feels like your head/skull/skin is paper thin. I could, at random intervals, feel my pulse in my head. There was also a rather unique headache unlike any normal pressure type. It's almost more an ethereal headache, and some of it in places you didn't know your head could hurt. Add to that a low-grade dose of nausea, and you get a really unpleasant weekend.
I couldn't take another day of it, so I started taking my new stuff today when I woke up. I still had a few of the withdrawal stuff, but not nearly as bad as the past two days, for which I am grateful. Not an experience I ever want to go through again, I can tell you. I'm not sure how much, if any, the new medicine is helping with the withdrawals, but I can already sense a slight increase in my overall mood. I notice that it's a bit more difficult to be depressed, which is most definitely a good sign. Sometimes its odd to think that the very way in which one thinks is partly able due to chemicals, and when said chemicals don't work, even things like being hopeful becomes an effort of great magnitude.
The symptoms are really hard to describe too, as I've never had that specific combination before, ever, save for one other time when I couldn't get the same said meds for a few days. It feels like your head/skull/skin is paper thin. I could, at random intervals, feel my pulse in my head. There was also a rather unique headache unlike any normal pressure type. It's almost more an ethereal headache, and some of it in places you didn't know your head could hurt. Add to that a low-grade dose of nausea, and you get a really unpleasant weekend.
I couldn't take another day of it, so I started taking my new stuff today when I woke up. I still had a few of the withdrawal stuff, but not nearly as bad as the past two days, for which I am grateful. Not an experience I ever want to go through again, I can tell you. I'm not sure how much, if any, the new medicine is helping with the withdrawals, but I can already sense a slight increase in my overall mood. I notice that it's a bit more difficult to be depressed, which is most definitely a good sign. Sometimes its odd to think that the very way in which one thinks is partly able due to chemicals, and when said chemicals don't work, even things like being hopeful becomes an effort of great magnitude.
