I'm just not entirely sure what it is that I'm hoping for at the moment. Well, that's only partially true. I know a few things I'm hoping for, but there are also some things of which I know nothing, save perhaps an inkling. All I really know is that I have a need for something, but again, this is something I'm entirely sure of. Meaning, I don't know what this need is exactly, other than it branches causing me to feel pangs in other areas. Boy, was that vague. But I feel ague and uncertain, so it's not surprising that my explanation of such should be similar in nature.
I just think that the various inadequacies and lacks I feel in my life as of late are stemming from the need of something that I don't really know what it is. Tis the root causing the pain along the branches, but I can only see the result in the branches. Like my various cravings for company at times, and the shunning of it at others. There's something deeper within me that causes the want, it is the need that drives everything else. I just wish I knew what that need was exactly. I feel that if I could name the need, I could go about working to fix it instead of focusing on fixing the shallow stuff.
I just think that the various inadequacies and lacks I feel in my life as of late are stemming from the need of something that I don't really know what it is. Tis the root causing the pain along the branches, but I can only see the result in the branches. Like my various cravings for company at times, and the shunning of it at others. There's something deeper within me that causes the want, it is the need that drives everything else. I just wish I knew what that need was exactly. I feel that if I could name the need, I could go about working to fix it instead of focusing on fixing the shallow stuff.