I'm never quite sure how or why it happens, but I often discover new aspects of myself from time to time (perhaps one day I'll discover why exactly it happens). As not to disappoint this ongoing trend of self discovery, or revalation, or something, I've come to the conclusion that I am drawn to pain like a damn magnet. Not pain in large numbers, I seem to just blank large tragedies out of mind, probably because I never know any large number of the people. It's tragic, but most people do. Anyhoo, I've realized that when people are hurting, emotionally or physically, it drags me in. I feel compelled to try and make the situation better, either through making jokes, or consoling, or bitching enough about my own problems to make the person feel like he or she isn't alone. It has been quite odd to grasp the fact that I gravitate towards pain, even if it is with an urge to fix things. *ponders*