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I've been feeling very odd lately. In the last few weeks a feeling of listlessness, apathy, and a directionless focus have all begun to beset me, and I haven't the faintest clue as to why. Oh sure, part of it could very well be a decent lack of sleep, but it's so very much more than that. And it's not just me feeling off. My brother, friends, and people we know all have begun getting off. I've been told that this happens quite frequently about this time of year, but for the life of me, I can't recall this happening.
I haven't had this problem all year. Last semester I diligently pulled myself through class after class (and managed an amazing 3.50 btw, but that's neither here nor there), and with nary a lack of trying. I'll admit, near the end there, I was getting kind of stressed, but I never really stopped trying to care.
Now it's all I can do to do my calc homework (which I actually find to be entertaining at times) or reading from those brain numbing text books. I just can't make myself do the work like I could even a few weeks ago. My brain keeps saying I should do these things, but my body just keeps me doing little useless things that aren't usually productive, or even always fun. And every moment I spend not doing the work, I'm constantly worrying about not doing it, so not only am I getting nothing done, I fretting about it. It’s a vicious cycle that I’d rather not stay in.
Maybe it’ll be better next year when I don’t have to take all these crappy requirement classes like research paper (*sobs over the injustice*). I wanted to take creative writing dammit, but noooo!!!
I just wish that I could find something more entertaining to do with my time, but instead I find myself aimlessly surfing the net, bored out of my skull, just on the off chance that someone interesting will come along and talk to me. When the right person does come along, any time spent is totally worth it, but as of late, I spend just as much time wandering in a daze as talking. On the plus side, all of this moping leads to excellent lj material. :p
I haven't had this problem all year. Last semester I diligently pulled myself through class after class (and managed an amazing 3.50 btw, but that's neither here nor there), and with nary a lack of trying. I'll admit, near the end there, I was getting kind of stressed, but I never really stopped trying to care.
Now it's all I can do to do my calc homework (which I actually find to be entertaining at times) or reading from those brain numbing text books. I just can't make myself do the work like I could even a few weeks ago. My brain keeps saying I should do these things, but my body just keeps me doing little useless things that aren't usually productive, or even always fun. And every moment I spend not doing the work, I'm constantly worrying about not doing it, so not only am I getting nothing done, I fretting about it. It’s a vicious cycle that I’d rather not stay in.
Maybe it’ll be better next year when I don’t have to take all these crappy requirement classes like research paper (*sobs over the injustice*). I wanted to take creative writing dammit, but noooo!!!
I just wish that I could find something more entertaining to do with my time, but instead I find myself aimlessly surfing the net, bored out of my skull, just on the off chance that someone interesting will come along and talk to me. When the right person does come along, any time spent is totally worth it, but as of late, I spend just as much time wandering in a daze as talking. On the plus side, all of this moping leads to excellent lj material. :p
